Gavin's Birth Story
I am kicking myself for not writing all of this down while it was fresh in my brain. It was such a special, life changing experience that I don't ever want to forget. However, here I sit 3 years later on the night before Holden is born trying to recall as much as I can. I don't want to forget or mix up their stories.
The Dr broke my water and from there I seemed to progress a little quicker. I literally went from a 5-9 in a little over an hour. They called my Dr and she hurried in to begin pushing. No need to hurry though because I pushed for a full hour and half...longest 90 minutes of my life! Pushing was really difficult because I could barely feel anything below my diaphragm. I had to really focus on what I thought was a push. It's a really weird feeling. I was lucky to have such awesome cheerleaders there. Ryan fed me ice chips and held one of my legs while Reesie held the other (they were like dead weight because of the epidural) Steph stayed off to side of the room but was my push counter! I really couldn't focus or concentrate on when or how long I was supposed to push and needed someone there counting for me. Every push took what seemed like all the energy left in my body and I needed her there telling me how much longer I had to go. Reesie was my cheerleader and was so encouraging the entire pushing time. She kept saying, "almost there" "I see his head" "you're so close" which made me think I was getting closer with each push. When in reality Gavin had not budged much at all. Steph also called my dad on speaker phone as Gavin was being born so he could hear Gavin's first moments! They asked me if I wanted a mirror toward the end so that I could see Gavin come out and at first I thought it was disgusting and said definitely no. But, I discovered if you angle the mirror just right you can avoid a lot of things you don't want to see and still be able to watch the actual birth take place.
So glad I had the mirror because I literally watched the final pushes where Gavin just slid right out and it was the most unreal and emotional thing I have ever experienced. After a few seconds he let out a little cry and they checked him, Ryan cut the umbilical cord and they handed him to me. I will never forget the first time I held him and I just started talking and he heard my voice and very slowly struggled to open his eyes to localize my voice and see me. He just stared up at me for such a long time and in that moment I discovered a whole new kind of love.
this is where he was trying so hard to open his eyes!
The next day:
family of 4!
We already love this sweet boy more than words can describe!!